Huh.  I was pr0-@n@ and didn't even know it.  I looked it up on the web and these are the @n@ commandments.

1. If you aren't thin you aren't attractive.

2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.

3. You must buy small clothes, cut your hair, take diet pills, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner.

4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.

5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.

6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.

7. What the scale says is the most important thing.

8. Losing weight is good / gaining weight is bad.

9. You can never be too thin.

10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success. 

Of course I'm not being serious as far as supporting this, but I subconsciously think 8/10 of these things are the way it is.  I don't agree with the list, but I think most of the list.

Is this stuff I should be pouring out online?  I don't know.  I sure as hell don't speak of it ever with people, aside from Lee. 

Comments

[Terri]

I got your package today! Well, the slip anyway. I have to run to the post office to pick it up. I'm very excited! Thank you SO much! I hope you're okay... I worry when you don't update. :(

[bettyalready]

haha, I got it. I heard Beyonce say that inside her was a fat woman screaming to get out and I have liked her ever since.

[Alex Vance]

that should have read "thin."

[Alex Vance]

What's the old saying?
Outside every thing woman is a fat man trying to get in.

[Calulu]

I'm not fat, my body is just, uh, creatively vast. btw it is scary just how much pro-ana, mia there is out there online. Sick, why can't we all just love ourselves the way we are? (so says the girl always on a diet..)

[bettyalready]

haha

ME TOO

[Kellbelle]

I'm not fat I'm fluffy :)